I still had no idea what i was trying to do after a late night internet search took me down a rabbithole, landed me on Turtle Vision healing arts and I clicked free phone session. Within the first 5 minutes of the call, Joye somehow cut through my fragmented ramblings, my weird phone manners and anxious socially-appropriated mask and I found myself – with a freedom beyond any therapy session (and I have had many) – giving honest voice to my circumstances and need for help. From there she guided me to what i actually need help for. I saved up and went in. When she began to journey for me, I felt the tension in my body--my fears, that morning's traumatic events, even my skepticism—sapping away, giving room for calm to root. By the end I felt collected, consolidated---like a full colored pencil box; maybe some underappreciated, but no doubles---none missing. Joye blew the pieces of me she found back into my heart and crown and it was complete. Then she traveled again and introduced me to my power animals, my guides. At the end of the session, Joye walked me through how to assimilate myself into an integrated whole. I struggled with the integration on site, but she was a clear and good teacher and I was steeled by her account of the journey and what she brought back to me---she understood things, real things, showed me the places where it happened and brought pieces of me back with her. I am a prone to shaming myself into failure, but Joye took the time to follow up with me, answer my questions, and guide me toward the steps I need climb next. A week and some odd days/attempts later, it happened. I integrated what Joye restored to me. It was raw--there is a part of me that is still reeling---probably my ego. I faced so much and came out whole. It was nothing like I feared, or any of the other times I’ve attempted to face my baggage. The work Joye did was very real, akin to how surgery can set a broken bone and give the body the chance to heal whole again. I feel undivided, emotionally connected, and have hope for my future—I can think with these forces on my side again. I have begun the work of mending. Joye, I express my reverence and gratitude for your work, your guides--your gifts and skill---your words. Thank you. I will be back with family and friends in tow.